I will never be the same.

After divorce you have a lot of conversations with people , some make you question yourself, it might be the things your ex-husband/wife says to you, it might be things your family says to you, it might be things your friends say.

I have a lot of people over the past two years saying a lot of things, I try to take them in, analyze them, process them and learn from them.

I am going to address these statements or questions, but not all at once, the list is far to long.

THE FIRST STATEMENT:

Your not the person you used to be

I change all the time, I changed when I got married,  I changed when I became a Mother, I changed when I became a mother whose daughter was diagnosed with Bi-Polar.   I changed when I became a Mother of two, I changed when I became the wife of someone I couldn’t trust on any level, I changed when I became divorced, I changed when I had life threatening health conditions, I changed when I met the love of my life, I changed when the timing didn’t work in our life and I had to let him go.  I changed when I became an empty nester, I changed when I met my second husband, I changed when we changed, I changed when we got divorced.  I changed when my Father died, I changed when I became a Grandmother , I changed when my Mother got sick.

 I AM STILL CHANGING.

I don’t know a life without change, does anyone?  Does anyone ever stay the same?

I don’t want to remain the same

I don’t want to stay the same person I was when I was twenty at forty-eight

I don’t want to stop learning

I don’t want to stop growing

I am everyone I used to be.

Yet, I will never be the same.

women

Advertisements

One thought on “I will never be the same.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s